Of all the videos I have put up on my YouTube Channel so far, the one I did putting footage to a song I recorded has done about two or three times better than the others. It seems to be what people are more interested in seeing.
In light of that, I’ve taken another song I wrote, Carry Me, and put footage to it as well.
I wrote Carry Me a few months ago trying to capture what it’s like being in the throws of depression. I say “trying” because I haven’t ever suffered with it myself, but my wife did for years. In an attempt to maybe understand her more and sympathize (and also just write a good song) I put this together.
If I’m honest, though, it also has a bit of myself in there. It’s partly about dealing with sin and needing the release of confession – needing to lighten the load on my conscience. If I don’t go to the priest in reconciliation after awhile, I feel spiritually heavy.
That being said, guilt goes hand in hand with depression, too.
Whatever the case, in addition to a good therapist and maybe medication, God is someone we should run to in the middle of storms like this. He is someone who can help carry us through it.
If you are someone who deals with depression or any other kind of mental illness, I would say, be careful listening to this song. It might trigger unhelpful emotions.
It also might encourage you, though. Or it might not have any impact at all. Still, I feel the need to give the warning. You can read the lyrics here, if you would like a heads-up before listening.
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